I See

Ok I see I am just talking to myself when I write oh well.

Thanks Giving is coming up yay food, just a few days left.

Last Thanks Giving I made the turkey

I think that I did a good job it was yummy.

This year I dont have to do much I will help make a pie and some yams.

I sometimes just hate holidays but oh well can do much about why.

I am just about done with school still. I have been waiting to get an internship with a company for 5 months now I am so sick of waiting it is past time for me to be done with school.

In the next little while I am hoping that I find me a job and be done with school so I can move on with our lives and start to get money again. Oh how I miss getting money.

Goal

My new goal starting this week is to write on here at least once a week.

If you read this comment on this so I know that people actually read this

and that I am not just writing for myself.

New Baby boy

The day finally came. On Monday we had a new little baby join our family.

He came out weighing 8lbs 1oz and was 20 inches long. We have been enjoying the time with our new little guy. It took us a

long time to figure out a good name for him but we finally decided on Myles. Myles is such a cute little guy. He enjoys sleeping pooping and eating, oh yeah and sun bathing.

The rest of our kids love him.

They ended up staying with Grandparents for 3 days and wow, that was such a great h

elp. The kids were off of there regular routine after staying with grandparents. After they came home the boys were not to bad but Lydia was so sleepy. She had not been sleeping at night and not taking her naps so when we got her home she was just ornery, so today we will be playing catch up.

We ended up coming home on Tues. and being able to sleep at night in our own bed. So far Myles sleeps good at night with only a few times of waking up. Today I will try to take more photos of him before he gets to big.

P.S. I just found out I was wrong he wakes up more then I thought I guess I just dont hear him my bad. I guess I need to pay more attention at night I use to be good with the other kids I am not sure what my problem is.

No more Jeep :(

Well life for the most part is the same here. I am still trying to get though school. I am working part time. And I am going crazy.

About 3 weeks ago my Jeep took a dive. The head gasket blow. I didn't have the money to put into it to get it up and going again so I put it up for sale. At first I had a lot of calls on it but no one ever came to look at it. About 2 weeks went by and I had not heard from anyone about it. So on Sat morning I was going to put it back on KSL and saw that my phone number got changed and that is why no one would call on it. After changing that I ended up getting a call later that day and the man seemed really interested in it. So he came up from Provo and looked it over. He is a mechanic so he looked it over good. At first I didn't think he was going to buy it but then he did. So now I have no more jeep :( I will miss that jeep so many great memories with it.

I am just working on getting this one more test done in school that and an internship and I will be done with school. I have been working on this test way to long now I just wish I didnt have to work then I could spend more time studying and less worrying about work.

Still one of my biggest worries about finishing school is not finding a job.

So Close

I am getting so close to being done with school. I am at that point were it is so close but yet so far.

I only have 2 more classes to do and I am done with school. That is when the really hard stuff begins (Finding a Job). I really want a job badly but I am so scared that once I get done with school I will not be able to find one. We shall see soon.

My boys have both now started Baseball. The first games were last week, and they did great.

Tyson was the second one up to bat on his team and the first pitch and BAM he hit it I was so proud of him. He was also the first one home, I tell you what that was one proud boy. Rykar was not looking forward to going to baseball he just wanted to play at the park right next to the field. The game was about to start and I couldn't find him then I saw him running to the playground. I had to tell him I would race him back to the field just to get him to go back. He finally got him mitt and wet out with his team to warm up. Watching those little ones play was the funniest thing ever I wish I would have had my video camera but I didn't.

Lydia is growing up so fast. We still have her speech therapist come to our house and try to work with her to get her to talk. She is getting better but still will not say anything just jabbers.

Work sucks as always. I try so hard to find the good in it but it is not easy. I am only grateful that I have a little bit of money coming in even if it is not enough to pay bills. I just wait for the day when I don't have to clean up after kids that are not mine.

My friends little sister past away yesterday and that got me thinking, How much time do we all really have? I know in my life I think I spend to much time worrying about things that I don't stop and enjoy life like I once did.

When you are a child you don't have much to worry about just to get up and go to school. You get to have fun and just enjoy different things in life but once you get older for some reason all that fun that adventure all just goes away. Now you might have kids of your own a house to take care of a job that you have to go to every day. I know that when you get older you need to grow up. You also have more responsibilities, but when do we stop having the little kid inside of us that loves going and doing fun, things like hiking, camping, fishing, rock climbing, sky diving, boating, or just getting up and going anywhere you wanted and so much more.

Life is about living and I look at my life and am not sure that I am living it to the max. Life is way to short to be worrying about every little thing that happens.

There is not much different in my life right now. It is mostly the same things all the time. School is going ok for me some days are better then others but I am really ready to be done with it. Evey day I wake up and wish I had a Full time job doing something that I enjoy, but every day ends up being the same day over and over again. There is nothing wrong with that and it is no ones fault but I know that there is more in life that we could all be doing other then the same old things over and over.

To my friend and his family our thoughts and prayers are with you and we love you.