I See

Ok I see I am just talking to myself when I write oh well.

Thanks Giving is coming up yay food, just a few days left.

Last Thanks Giving I made the turkey

I think that I did a good job it was yummy.

This year I dont have to do much I will help make a pie and some yams.

I sometimes just hate holidays but oh well can do much about why.

I am just about done with school still. I have been waiting to get an internship with a company for 5 months now I am so sick of waiting it is past time for me to be done with school.

In the next little while I am hoping that I find me a job and be done with school so I can move on with our lives and start to get money again. Oh how I miss getting money.

Goal

My new goal starting this week is to write on here at least once a week.

If you read this comment on this so I know that people actually read this

and that I am not just writing for myself.

New Baby boy

The day finally came. On Monday we had a new little baby join our family.

He came out weighing 8lbs 1oz and was 20 inches long. We have been enjoying the time with our new little guy. It took us a

long time to figure out a good name for him but we finally decided on Myles. Myles is such a cute little guy. He enjoys sleeping pooping and eating, oh yeah and sun bathing.

The rest of our kids love him.

They ended up staying with Grandparents for 3 days and wow, that was such a great h

elp. The kids were off of there regular routine after staying with grandparents. After they came home the boys were not to bad but Lydia was so sleepy. She had not been sleeping at night and not taking her naps so when we got her home she was just ornery, so today we will be playing catch up.

We ended up coming home on Tues. and being able to sleep at night in our own bed. So far Myles sleeps good at night with only a few times of waking up. Today I will try to take more photos of him before he gets to big.

P.S. I just found out I was wrong he wakes up more then I thought I guess I just dont hear him my bad. I guess I need to pay more attention at night I use to be good with the other kids I am not sure what my problem is.

No more Jeep :(

Well life for the most part is the same here. I am still trying to get though school. I am working part time. And I am going crazy.

About 3 weeks ago my Jeep took a dive. The head gasket blow. I didn't have the money to put into it to get it up and going again so I put it up for sale. At first I had a lot of calls on it but no one ever came to look at it. About 2 weeks went by and I had not heard from anyone about it. So on Sat morning I was going to put it back on KSL and saw that my phone number got changed and that is why no one would call on it. After changing that I ended up getting a call later that day and the man seemed really interested in it. So he came up from Provo and looked it over. He is a mechanic so he looked it over good. At first I didn't think he was going to buy it but then he did. So now I have no more jeep :( I will miss that jeep so many great memories with it.

I am just working on getting this one more test done in school that and an internship and I will be done with school. I have been working on this test way to long now I just wish I didnt have to work then I could spend more time studying and less worrying about work.

Still one of my biggest worries about finishing school is not finding a job.

So Close

I am getting so close to being done with school. I am at that point were it is so close but yet so far.

I only have 2 more classes to do and I am done with school. That is when the really hard stuff begins (Finding a Job). I really want a job badly but I am so scared that once I get done with school I will not be able to find one. We shall see soon.

My boys have both now started Baseball. The first games were last week, and they did great.

Tyson was the second one up to bat on his team and the first pitch and BAM he hit it I was so proud of him. He was also the first one home, I tell you what that was one proud boy. Rykar was not looking forward to going to baseball he just wanted to play at the park right next to the field. The game was about to start and I couldn't find him then I saw him running to the playground. I had to tell him I would race him back to the field just to get him to go back. He finally got him mitt and wet out with his team to warm up. Watching those little ones play was the funniest thing ever I wish I would have had my video camera but I didn't.

Lydia is growing up so fast. We still have her speech therapist come to our house and try to work with her to get her to talk. She is getting better but still will not say anything just jabbers.

Work sucks as always. I try so hard to find the good in it but it is not easy. I am only grateful that I have a little bit of money coming in even if it is not enough to pay bills. I just wait for the day when I don't have to clean up after kids that are not mine.

My friends little sister past away yesterday and that got me thinking, How much time do we all really have? I know in my life I think I spend to much time worrying about things that I don't stop and enjoy life like I once did.

When you are a child you don't have much to worry about just to get up and go to school. You get to have fun and just enjoy different things in life but once you get older for some reason all that fun that adventure all just goes away. Now you might have kids of your own a house to take care of a job that you have to go to every day. I know that when you get older you need to grow up. You also have more responsibilities, but when do we stop having the little kid inside of us that loves going and doing fun, things like hiking, camping, fishing, rock climbing, sky diving, boating, or just getting up and going anywhere you wanted and so much more.

Life is about living and I look at my life and am not sure that I am living it to the max. Life is way to short to be worrying about every little thing that happens.

There is not much different in my life right now. It is mostly the same things all the time. School is going ok for me some days are better then others but I am really ready to be done with it. Evey day I wake up and wish I had a Full time job doing something that I enjoy, but every day ends up being the same day over and over again. There is nothing wrong with that and it is no ones fault but I know that there is more in life that we could all be doing other then the same old things over and over.

To my friend and his family our thoughts and prayers are with you and we love you.

A+

I did it! After a long time of reading and studying I finally did it I Passed my A+ Exam and now I am A+ Certified wow. I never thought I would be certified at anything now I just see this as a start to a new life.
One thing I have remember my parents always telling me is work hard and study hard you can do anything you want to just put your mind to it. Thanks to my great parents I have put my mind to doing something better in my life and I really feel better about myself knowing that I am not dumb, knowing that I really can do anything I put my mind to.
I first started today out stressed and thinking I was not going to be able to pass at all. Now that I have passed it I feel like I can do anything bring it on well ok one thing at a time lol.

Christmas is coming fast and I am not ready for it at all. There is way to much to do, mostly shopping that I have put off. Now I will be shopping with all the other guys that have put it off.
I am so greatful this Christmas season I have a great family to be with and enjoy all the memories that we will soon have.
The tree has been up and the stockings too, dont know were to go shop how about you, Christmas is coming and I past my test, so all we need now is a little rest.

One down

Well I did it for all of you out there thinking that I wouldnt be able to I passed the first time with a 90% not to bad. Now that I have got the first one out of the way I now have one more test till I am certified. So that is all I do for 6hr at school is study study study for that one last test that I take next week.
Christmas is coming really fast and we for some reason have yet to get all our shopping done so now we have to hurry before it is to late.

Finally going to take the exam

After being done with the book that I was reading for school for about 3 weeks now I am finally going to take the exam. I have now been studying for it for about 2 weeks now and will take the exam first thing tomorrow. I am excited but at the same time not. I am just ready to move on to the next class. The crappy part about this test is that there is 2 parts so I will only take the first part of it tomorrow then I will study for the next test and schedule to take it in about 1 or 2 weeks.
I am not sure how well I am doing in school but I am sure hopping that I am doing good.

With all the time that I spend in school I wish I had time to do some hobbies or something I just never seem to have any time still to do what I like and what I want to do.
I have started in this photo club but I still have yet to do anything for it. I know when all is said and done with school that I will be able to do much more then I am now but it would just be sure nice to do some of it now too.

What Blizzard

Most of the time I really dont know what I am talking about I usually will just say things to make you think that I do for an example, yesterday they told us that we were going to have a blizzard and that is was going to be big some people were calling it the storm of the decade, others were so scared that they went out and bought all they could so that they would be ready for no power and all sorts of things to happen. Well remember I dont know what I am talking about but that storm we had was no BLIZZARD and I know we have had so much better storms then that. Sure there was a lot of wind and it was so cold but I am still sticking with NOT A BLIZZARD.

The EXAM

I think i have got myself out of the slump i was in, but now i have a bigger problem. I am now done with the huge book i was reading for class and i have taken all the quizzes and Tests but now I have to schedule the FINAL EXAM for my certification. I want to be done so bad but I have be trying to avoid taking this EXAM ever since i started.

Work sucks I am sick of only having a part time job but that is all I can do for now. I guess I would just like a computer job so I can get some experience so when I am done with school someone will hire me.

Motivation

Here i am sitting in school it is lunch time so dont worry. I am in major need of some extreme motivation. I was doing so good in school, I was ahead of were i should have been and was doing so great but then one day I hit this major wall and I am having such a hard time getting back up.
I know if I just keep going and get it all done life will be better but I have lost the motivation. :(

Why is the sky blue

Well I have now been going to school for about 3 months now and i think i am really sick of reading.
When you go to school and sit in the same class for 6+ hrs and read wow you thought i was crazy before you should see me now. Ok school is really not that bad. I love to learn new things so it has really been good for me.
Last night we went to the pumpkin walk it was really fun but when we got there wow it was a long line. We ended up waiting in line for over 1hr but it was great it was something different and i needed something different i was starting to hate every day doing the exact same thing over and over it was some time for change.
Right now i thought i would update this since it has been a very long time. Now that i fixed my computer i will be able to write more often.
I have to go now i am in the middle of making some home made Oreos MMMmmmm MMMmmm goood i cant wait to eat them.

Life goes on

Here I sit on my couch at home wondering what to do. You see last week I was let go from my job, and I am not wanting to go back to some job. I am looking for something that I want to do, something that will make it so that every day when I go to work that i will not be working that i will be doing what i love. The biggest problem with that is that i have no idea what i want to do.

I have been thinking of going to school, but just don't know how to go to school and have no job. There has got to be a good answer to this but i don't know what to do. Just when you think that everything is going great well that is when it hits you and life is back to square one, WHAT TO DO!?
Getting let go from work could have not come at a worse time. We had just bought our new house and are still getting settled in. But then again if it came before we got our house we would not be here today.

Many things have happened in the past while that i did not get on here because some reason my computer would not let me get on to blog but i am back on now!

I learned a lesson the hard way this week. My boys were out side playing in the pool on mon. and my boys took off there shirts and didn't put sun screen on. They were outside with me most of the day, I told them that they either needed to get a shirt on or go in the house or they would get burnt, they didn't care. That night i found out that i need to be a better dad and next time not ask them but tell them because they both are now burnt. Tyson doesn't have it as bad but my poor little guy wakes up all night crying and screaming because he is in so much pain from the burn. I never burn that easy so i didn't think it would be so bad but my wife and kids have different skin then i do. So lesson learned PUT SUNSCREEN ON the kids anyway.

A long time later

I have tried and tried to update my blog but my computer would not let me do so. I finally got it to work today when i really didnt want to talk but i will anyway.
First things first we did get out of our old house after pain over and over again, but we are out and in to our new home and that is what matters. I will expand on everything more when i feel like talking.
Sorry today is just not a happy one at all, you see my grandma is not with us anymore, and I dont do so well with loved ones passing away, it is very hard for me but all will be ok.

Nope

Well the worst finally came. We had someone buying our house, so we went out and found a house that we loved and are now trying to buy it. The crappy part of it is now that we had everything going just right yep the worst happened. The ones that were buying our home were not able to and had to cancel the contract with us.
Growing up I was always taught to do one thing trust in the lord with all my heart. Even though sometimes it is the hardest thing to do for me, I still do. When this bad news hit the one thing i could do was just to think that the lord will help make everything OK.
We did end up finding out more about why the people had to back out, which then made me a little happier that they didn't want to walk away but that they had to walk away.
I know everything will be ok and that we will still be able to get our new home.

Faster

Well right now we are trying to sale our house so that we can get a bigger house for our family.
I know that it has only been a week but I wish that our house was sold.
Within this week we have had 5 people come look at our house. Yes that is good but not good enough. None of them are giving us any feedback like, they like it but it is to small or they don't like the house at all. I don't care what they say I just would like something back. Maybe it is something that i can change.
The weather has been getting better, good enough for me to take my motorcycle to work one day. It was so nice to be able to get out and ride. If you have or have had a bike you know what I mean.
I will try to post some pics soon but no promises.

Just dont lie to me

You know someone told me not to long ago that i was going to be able to do something and they lied to me about it and it has now just pissed me off. It is one thing to just tell me no that will not work, but when you say that it would be OK, then I find out through someone else that it is not going to happen, well that will just get you on my list. So what am I to do now? He has now made my everything change in my plans on what i was going to be doing for the rest of my life (well so i think).
I am trying to stay happy about life, but it seems that it is hard to do when you try to better your life and crap happens.

As the days go by

Busy busy busy that is how my life has been this year, and it is only the first month.
We started a new thing at work, we are doing a biggest loser contest so for all of you that don't know me I need to lose 100lbs so I joined and am now in first place so far. I lost 9.5lbs in just one week. I know that next week wont be as great but I am now starting to lose so that is all that matters.
Work is all the same, and same with at home not much has changed just very busy. Tyson is now in Jr Jazz, and he is loving it. Rykar had swimming lessons but those are now over. Lydia well she just loves to smile and make everyone happy.

I do some crazy things

Well yesterday started out to be just a normal day at work. But then two of the nurses came up to me and said, we will pay you if you drink this stuff. Now if you know me already then you know that when there is money involved then i am probably going to do it. But this stuff made me sit back and think for a min. I was not sure if I should do it or not. But you are right I couldn't pass this up so I did it. This (stuff) is not no ordinary stuff it was the liquid that you have before you go get a colonoscopy done. That's right the good stuff. Well before I did it I called my wife to tell her and she just laughed at me.
So I started to drink this stuff and it was not good at all. They gave me 3 hrs. to drink all of it. All 4L of it WOW. I was doing fine but it just seemed like every time that I drank some more it was worse then that last time. In the mean time I was still just working getting things done, but time was getting closer and closer. The last hr went by way to fast. I had about 15 mins. left and not much more to drink the min went by and not much was left but then my body stopped, it wouldn't let me drink anymore I tried and I tried but my body would not take it. TIME.
I didn't make it all I had left was about 8oz but i didn't want to get hurt so I let my body stop.
WOW I have never felt so white and ready to throw up that bad before but I didn't.
The one thing I didn't do while doing this is drink water as well. But I didn't because I knew if I drank water then I wouldn't be able to drink all the stuff.
So everyone said that I didn't look so good at all. They even told me that they would get me on an IV if I wanted them to. I thought about it but then it HIT I rushed to the restroom. Thinking I was done I came out and was going to have them start me on an IV but then it hit again a min later. As I sat there I decided that with the constant Hit that I couldn't have an IV.
Well to spare you all the details, the day went by and I stayed at work getting things done as I could. That is some crazy stuff.

Oh I bet you are wondering. Did I get the money? Well yes I did everyone that wanted to did I told them all they didn't have to because I didn't get it all down but they were nice enough to do so. I also found out that you are not to have any food 4hrs before you take that stuff, well I had just had a BIG breakfast right before. I also found out that they usually give you a lot more time then 3 hrs to drink it for a colonoscopy and that is why they payed me.

WOW the things I will do for extra money!